WHY loneliness'demon din sweep away from me ???

I'm sittin alone in my room...All my friends had gone back to their kampungs...As i imagine,,i have to go to eat,to sleep or even to talk alone...Sometimes did i want to cry,but i prefer to pretend,Pretending that i'm strong enough to live alone,trying to disguise that i wont cry when i know i had been hurt...

Every cloud has its own silver lining...That's the principle that i always hold...
I hold back my blurring tears when i want to cry loudly...I want to cry coz of just one ppl....The one who is now very enjoy v his couples...y i am so crazy abou him ...
I also dun know

I have to struggle in order to attain academic excellence in my own future..........
No matter how my life will be,i'm still liwei...my life still have to go on...and i will try my very best to pick up the shattered pieces and move on....

Could i do it??

NIght breeze blow gently thru the window...i am as usual lonely again...haha...now i am back but the delight turn to sadness when i noticed that i had to come back to kmj again...

Last monday...i was sitting on the hep side of kmj while doing my assignment v my classmate...sooner or later,a hep officer came out a get a stack of papers and tried to put it up to noticeboard...after that,i went to check my result by seeing my no matrix ma0916520935...What had appeared in my sight is AAAAd......

wELL,my ups result had finally announced...to my dismay,i get a D in my english muet ppl...i am so down and exasperated..i wonder if i had struggled for my english before...i kept on asking me y can i had a such terrible and supreme horrible result...
Little did i know such a bad and low gred i would have got...i Sobbed alone in my C3.12 room..I have no appetite to have my lunch...I wanna died...but still,i know i had a lot of task to do and wont have any time for me to prepare for dying...I am longing for staying in house...

I WANT MY ENGLISH A...cAN I DO IT??
-I BELIEVE AS LONG AS I DO THE BEST,GOD WILL DO THE REST-

jIA YOU...

May i speak out my love to you???

well,i'm now so complicated now...
i have someone in my heart that i might be love..
reminiscing the day that i asked him whether he miss him or not,i am still very doubtful...haha...at that moment ,i am so wantin him to answer me v the yes word...
but he said he din miss me....I'm feel so blue after that,i dun know y...maybe i fal in love v him ady...I had known him over ten years...and i started admiring him since my standard six....i do not know whether i love him or not,but when the times i feel loneliness surged thru my vein ,i will surely sms him...haha...i like him a lot bt din love him as well...Nevertheless,hope i will find my mr.sureright soon...

JIa You.GwendoLyn

Thinkin of you

Coming soon again 18 ogos..It is ur birthday again...I'm so missing you now??Could someone else tell me where are you now>>

Haha...i'm not simply kidding....but i have to admit that i still cant forget and delete him from my terrible memories..Glancing thru all his photo,i know he must be very satisfied v wat he had now...All i know is ,he is very happy coupling v his gf,delighted during the sojourn together v his gf...but somehow...i'm so dissapointed v wat i had seen....

Am i still love him,i dun know...Maybe just simply becox missing him had became my daily routine,maybe he is still in deep of my heart gua....

yesterday it was siew yong 'birthday...we had a great celebration with her...haha...i hope she will like it ...

-gwendolyn599-

haha....today is ong's birthday...