*One Date, One Chance, Tat's All I Ask*

8.30 night,saturday...i stayed alone at home...coz din wan go out v my family...listening to the music-wu ke qu dai by SHE...i listened to the lyrics over and over again....

innocence is happiness

Someone is heaven's gift to you

Love cannot be counted, and the ending can be good or bad

The answer can only be revealed at the last minute

As long as you're there when the thunderstorms brew

Only true love can predict how's the future going to be like

haha..where is my true love...where is the one...one date, one chance, tat's all i ask...waiting 4 u...last night, i feel so down...this is becoz of a ppl said tat i am not so beatiful as 3 years ago...become fatter...eyes become smaller...haha...wanna cry u know...but i know u're not meant to do it...i know all my weakness...and i had already sworn tat i will surely make changes for my better life...i wanna spoke eng fluently, i wanna be thinner~~ today, i had read a novel named 《那些年，我们一起追的女孩。》...i liked it so much...第一次与你回家的人， 你一辈子也不会忘记，《 一起回家》这四个字，不管在哪个生命历程，都有很浪漫的定义...ya, i still remember the man whom he acc me to go home at my 1st time, haha, i will not forget him last for ever...分手，只需一个人同意， 但*在一起*， 可是需要两个人同时的人可才能作数，恋爱就是要这么不确定才有趣，不是吗？...见识了那道灿烂，我的青春，再也无悔~~ i know tat u wan to go back 4 ns ady, but i still dun wan to sms u...coz of wat? i dunnoe...haha...mayb u wont know tat i still love u like i love you long time ago...but i wont never ever tell you...coz all i know tat will become a beginning of disaster...and of course, i am afraid of facing disaster...sorry...all the best to you and my dear friend...15 feb 2009 is coming soon...hope my buddy have a great birthday celebration....tataz...

*liw3i_559*

LOSER vs WINNER

before this,1st i want 2 admit tat i am the loser...a totally loser...if u ask me for the reason, u can get it from my bad luck...to my dismay, my lady luck din smile at me at all...aso, iwanna mention to some ppl who has no 17 at all...haha...u know ma?if u wanna know,just ask from me...byebye...tataz...

The so called friends

昨天~~

那天我主动开口说要请大家吃，顺便想让大家聚聚，但我的纯粹意愿，却被一两个的带动，完全破碎了~我不想说我的一个朋有~~老实说，当春俊告诉我他要走时，我是要留下他的，可是我没有，因为我知道，要走的就会走的，结果，敏杰雄就一起走了，过后，我再也看不到其它所谓的朋友了，除了几个（那几个，应该是重感情的吧）~~

去了婉馨家，也是一样，渐渐地，大家就慢慢地散了，最后留下地，只是玉玲，婉馨，强还有音了~~我已前都怀疑，怀疑我是不是有一大群的朋友，现在我不怀疑了~~因为我已知道答案，而且还很明确~~

在这一群中，我看不到我从友谊中得到的快乐~~我不要在留下了~~对不起，等我学会车我就要搬家了，因为我不会再重视友谊，我只要关心我真正的朋友，而不是所谓的朋友~~~

深夜，振强说了一些大道理，他说人心险恶， 对啊，我很赞成~~我承认，我也是~~

人本来就是将的，只是有些人却在自己骗自己~~

我以为，我很快乐，可是当我面对一些小事时，就会不由自主地想哭~~

我常常在想，我是不是太弱了，还是因为感情丰富，还是因为周遭的人太怎样了，可是我始终没有答案~~

~~我也以为，我是有朋友的，可是我最后也错了~~

花，树

~树~

今早，看着庭院外的那大树，霎时，心中的思绪也跟着那棵树摇曳着~~
我望着那棵树，刚开始时，我觉得他很可怜，因为要长期忍受着太阳的暴晒，且不能对任何风吹雨打有所埋怨~~
后来的后来，我查觉到，那棵树其实和我们人类一样， 静静地站在自己的工作冈位，为人类， 动植物类付出~~
反而是我们人类，常常都为了一些小芝麻事闹个不休，从来都不问自己到底又付出了多少，给了多少~~也不知我们又有多少个遗憾未了，多少个愿望未达**

~花~

每多花，都有自己的花语，它们仿佛是个有气质的少年，散发出不同的香味~~而我们人类就只懂得尾随着时间的脚步，常常把金钱披在自己身上，有些甚至为了那几个名牌，而不知觉地掉入花花世界的陷阱中++这又是哪位高人传授给人们的哪门道理呢？？

~人活在这世上，如果多了遗憾， 就会美中不足，

不要意味地相信花言巧语，做个属于自己的自己~

++爱，若有昨天，还会是好的++

歌曲名：开始懂了
歌手：孙燕姿
专辑：我要的幸福

我竟然没有调头最残忍

那一刻静静看你走一点都不像我

原来人会变得温柔 是透澈的懂了

爱情是流动的

不由人的

何必激动着要理由

相信你只是怕伤害我

不是骗我

很爱过谁会舍得

把我的梦摇醒了

宣布幸福不会来了

用心酸微笑去原谅了

也翻越了

有昨天还是好的

但明天是自己的

开始懂了

快乐是选择

No feeling at alL

haha...today is a nice sunny day...but i still felt very bored...but fortunately got my cousin acc v me...ah mei like to sing very much,especially the hei se hui mei mei'song...haha..ask my friend come to my house, but they dun wan, haiz,dun wan jiu dun wan lor...haha..juz kidding...today, my taiwan's freind visited to my house...he had already worked in singapore...i was totally shocked when he told me tat he became a baker...haha...tat means tat i can eat the bread made by him in future...
haiz...i saw through the msn list...only a few ppl online~~so i wanna ask where are the rest? get angpao? visit relatives or friends' house...or go 4 praying?? then how come i have to stay alone at my house neh...haha...
a lonely cny...r u felt tat? mayb i thought too much ady...haha...hope mr-ex can b my friend again...bye bye...wanna take care of my cousins ler...

~++LoN3liN3ss++~

NOW,is 26 jan...i dun like this feeling...coz of raining, my mom dun let me to go out v friends...haiz, if now got a friend can acc v me, i will certainly love tat friend forever de...but. no ppl want to acc me...so, all i can do is juz typing 4 my blog all alone...so bored u know... 一首简单的歌，一个实在的心情，我不是个特别的人，不过我要我的生活过得比每一人特别，我要我身边疼我爱我的人都开心~~这首歌，是我和你分手后，让我觉悟的一首歌，我离开你是老天对我正确的安排，我不要让你来主宰我，我要主宰我自己~~今天是，明天也是，未来也是~

天亮了 天亮了地球又转一圈了世界还活生生的存在着还活着 没想到我还活着 穿越一场海啸什么滋味我终于亲身体会天崩地裂筋疲力竭灵魂不在身体里面然而万岁万岁终于和你有个了结 你一边我一边我们的世界最好别再重叠也别再回想那个太长太长的昨天太多爱太多泪别再这样浪费 天亮了 天亮了 地球又转一圈了既然我还幸运的活着当然要全力以赴去快乐天亮了 天亮了 世界还是好好的什么痛都是很渺小的看太阳不是又升起来了 结束一段感情当然不像搬个家那么方便 太多细节太多碎片堆在回忆那间房间但是忍耐一点不去碰它就不危险 你没变 我没变我们到最后才能懂这一点人活着不就为了实现一个个心愿好可惜 我和你 许了不同的愿 天亮了 天亮了 地球又转一圈了既然我还幸运的活着当然要全力以赴去快乐天亮了 天亮了 世界还是好好的什么痛都是很渺小的看太阳不是又升起来了 我的心是我的 不会再给你了 我是我自己的 我很快乐

...my 2009 WISHES IS...

1. my spm eXAMINATION will pass v FLYING COLOUR...
2. i will find my super no.1
3. my friend will get their hapiness
4. hope my ah gong ,ah ma will be healtier
5. hope mr.ex can be my friend again and aso,he wont b so flower-heart
6. wish i can study at good college
7. hope my friends can aweys remember me
8. hope i can pass my car lesen soon
9. hope all my ns freind will be in good condition when they came back
10. hope my ambition will come true...

i will do my best to achieve all my wishes...gambateh...good night....wish 2molo is a sunny day..tataz...

Ah Gong, i am so sorry,wish u hapi ever

HOHOHOR...chinese new year is coming soon....only left 2 days from now...i miss all my dear friend...lynn, jia ming, wan sin,chew min,sampat gang,and aso my yam cha gang....hope 2 see them soon...will they be more prettier or handsome???haha...

today, i feel very very down..i saw my grandma shout at my grandpa...she even throw the money to my grandpa...how come like this...i reli cant understand....she din know how to repect ppl...she din know that ah gong aso have his pride...i heard my grandpa sobbing in the toilet...but i could do nothing..."marriage can bring hapiness",is tat true? i doubt...the truth tat cant denied is my ah ma reli love the family,she love her husband,too. But, what i had seen reli horrible...i cant imagine tat my grandma can do such terrible thing...she din know what ah goong feel inside his heart....ah gong is a softheart-man...he wont be scold us if we did the big mistake...he will just smile at us and said..."bu yong jin"...but to my dismay,my grandma dun appreaciate at all...

ah gong is 74 years old now...he is very old ady....he want to close down his shop-keng hong but she keeps assented to it...i dun know y she did like tat...she said she wants to continue the keng hong's business, but all i can see is , the people who run the business busily everday is my ah gong, but not her....y she must do like tat...y she want ah gong being so pity...
ah gong, i am sorry coz i am unable to help you...may god,guan yin,jesus,allah bless you will be healty always...i aso hope tat u can be a happy old man...

阿公，对不起~因为我只是个小辈，我不能帮你劝阿妈~~在我心里，你是世上最好的阿公,我知道你活得很痛苦，要忍最难忍的阿妈，不过我真的希望你会是世上最快乐的阿公，阿公，每当你告诉我你的辛苦时，我都没说话，但沉默不是因为没反应，是因为我真的很难过，我不可以哭，因为连受这么多委屈的你都没有在我面前哭，而我有什么资格哭~你的痛，我真的明白，你也和我一样，再怀疑爱情和婚姻带来的美满，到底是不是真的？？

阿公，加油~~我这孙女挺你到底~~你一定要快乐*—*

Noth!ng Can change my mind

This is the 1st time tat i drop some words at here...and of course, i got something important to write down...today, is 22 jan 2009...i feel tat got a ViP move into my heart...i start to miss him...miss the guy who is not at here now...he hav his duty to do....he said he like me but i dunnoe whether he love me o not.Maybe, i think too much ady...and of course, i will not make me to fall in lov v any guy

now is 9:30 pm....i assure,promise or even swear tat THE-EX CSHAU had been completely removed from my heart...now is waiting 4 mr.right....perhaps tat man is you..*T_ _*....but u wont certainly love me,as you like me...

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, falling in love with you was beyond my control!"

hopefully u will speak out ur love to mee....all i wanna to say is when I see the sunset and think of you.when I see everything and think of of you. One date, one chance, that's all I ask. Please be my Valentine.

i know it will not be 100% perfect...so may god bless me...jia you...all the best to me...

haha...mayb my dream will come true one day....mayb tat juz building castle in air...

-SOMETHING DEEP IN MY HEART-

Every minute I spend with you is like being in heaven and looking in an angel's eyes...

IF u will not b my valentine, then juz let this dream become a secret....a forever secret...

Lov3 begin with a smile, grow with a kiss,ends v a teardrop~~