Wednesday, March 25, 2009

给你的字迹

二月二十一日,是我们正式在一起的日子
十月十五日,是我们正式分手的日子

Counting by my fingers, there had been quite a longer time since you left me...Long time ago, I always used to think that i would lost my way for sure without you being beside me...I still remisnisce the nostalgic memories that we had share together...I could recall the days when i felt so devastated...and how the tears welled in my eyes as the time dragged by...

认识你,绝非坏事,
因为我知道是因为你的离开,
我看见我是多么惨忍的和朋友的心上人在一起,
我看见我是怎么的不珍惜眼前的幸福,
最重要的是,我看见了我自己活着的定义...

佳琛,我知道现在的你,很幸福...之所以,我没再想过要去打扰你,我想,这辈子我们都不会再见面了吧..你知道吗?? 我还是没变...我还是一样健忘,还是一样喜欢写日记,一样喜欢听着情歌入睡...还是一样偶尔拿出旧照片翻看...有时候,我真的很寂寞,寂寞得想哭了...有时候,我也会想起你...我还是会想起那封罗密欧的信...虽然我们的爱情结束了,但它还是永远活在我心中。。。因为我从来都没忘记过'佳琛,我爱过你,而且爱得很深'。。。在这里,我希望你能活得很好很好...但愿不管天涯海角,你都会记得曾经有个我那么爱过你。。。
笔于,
写给前男友的我,
你早已忘记的莉薇...

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

smthg about today

18 march 2oo9...It was a swelthering day...THe weather was stifling hot...
FOr my RM10's sake, i had spent my whole afternoon to calculate my dad's stock...till now, my head still feel throbbing pain...
today, i had received a quite long msg from my old friend...He got advised me to be aware of my friend surrounding me...Juz because he thinks tat every ppl in this materialistic world is all cheap..haha...In my opinion, i think not certainly all the human being is all cheap...but wat hav filled in my mind is every ppl is all selfish...including me...giving an example...if somebody do not have any selfishness, will he/she always study harder and harder to achieve a good result...Obviously, the answer be no...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

sorry


That day is on monday...it was a fine good morning...i was waiting to for the turn to do my passport...suddenly, i had seen a woman who had gone into the office...there is no doubt...it was your mom...i was totally astonished at that moment...i knew nothing to make me calming down...i juz hung low my head to avoid her from seeing me...after that, she could sense my presence...she seems like wan to chat v me...but after all, what i have done is juz avoiding from her sight...haha...i know,i was like an ostrich,always dun like to face the fact...and moreover, i hadn't made any changes...coz ,i would feel down too when the second i reminisce him...

PERHAPS , i will completely forget him in my BRIGHT future..

good night...

stop being stupid ler,gwendolyn lee li wei...

wish you can add more oil in your tough life journey...

gambateh...

Thursday, March 12, 2009

在这深夜里,我有好多话要说...

成绩已经握在我手里了,我很满足,真的,谢谢老天你赐给我的这份礼物...在这里,我想悄悄地告诉妈妈我的真心话:


妈咪,在我的生命中,您真的扮演了很重要的角色,如果没有你,我的生命不会有任何色彩...


谢谢你,
在我累的时候,
提醒要我早睡,
不要累坏身子...



谢谢你,
在我肚子饿的时候,
煮了我最喜欢的abc汤给我喝,



谢谢你,
在我考试的时候,
告诉我尽力就好,
别给自己太大的压力...



谢谢你,
在我心情不好的时候,
那么的容忍我,



谢谢你,
在我精神不好的时候,
递给我一罐鸡精喝...



谢谢你,
在我读书的时候,
每天四点起来,
为我准备早餐...



谢谢你,
在我告诉你我需要补习的时候,
你总是不管你是否忙得过来,
就答应载我去...



谢谢你,
在我每次失意的时候,
给了我十分的鼓励...



谢谢你,
在我每次觉得自己很笨时,
教会我什么叫勤能补拙,



谢谢你,
在我每次觉得没希望时,
教会我不要放弃...



谢谢你,
为了我们,
从早到晚都绷波忙碌...



谢谢你,
在你听到我成绩的时候,
你没问我为什么没比其他人好,
反而为我的努力,
扬起了笑意...



妈咪,
真的十分十分谢谢你,
谢谢你不求回报的付出,
谢谢你因为我而骄傲,
将来的日子,
我答应你,
我会再创佳绩,
绝不会辜负你的期望

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I HATE TO SOCIALIZE,SO DESPISE OF TAT..

最近,真的很烦,不,应该是说,今天。

不喜欢考车考不过的感觉。

不想我逼我自己做我不做的事。

最近,我发现我变了。

我不想说。

不过我知道我的改变。

Monday, March 9, 2009

别再为他流泪

今天的天气,冷冷地。下了一天的雨,有时很大,偶尔很小。

好久没写在这里留下字迹了,因为忙着看那本‘天使与恶魔’,蛮好看的,还不是因为看它打错价钱,否则我才不买呢?

前阵子,看过了红楼梦,终于知道它为何会成为中国的著名古典文学了。黛玉和宝玉的故事,就像是韩剧里的情节那么的凄惨,可是我知道,他们的故事虽然简单,但他们却以直活在当下。我喜欢,他们那年代的幼稚,他们那时的赤子之心,因为那是在现实生活中在也找不到的...他们的爱情因凄惨才那么美,我是那么想的...

最近,也为了改变我的单指神功,开始学打字了...我不知道为什么现在的我有那种耐心,不过无疑的是,那何谓不是好事? 我只想我能改变,做个能成功的人,我不要我自己再像以前不争气了...

明天要考车了,希望一切能顺利...

看了败犬这部戏,我突然喜欢上阮经天了,也喜欢三十二又七个月的佛地魔女的气质,‘恋爱绝不是看条件,而是靠感觉,没了感觉,就没意思了’...

我想,我的那种感觉,再也难以重拾了...我想,我不会对谁有任何感觉,就像是你说你要离开我之后我发过的誓言一样...

也许,单生的人,也可以很快乐,就像我一样...我很快乐,就像他没出现之前的那种快乐...

最后,成绩要揭晓了,不求甚么,只希望能好一点,减轻妈妈的经济负担...


**我要我快乐**


Tuesday, March 3, 2009

有经历,才会有回忆

今天,在报纸上无意间地看见这句话-有经历,才会有回忆。这句话给了我非凡的意义,是真的。
到了晚上,这句话依然盘际在我耳边。我知道,我又想起了他...
如果当初没经过爱情的那扇门,
而如今的我怎么会知道我曾经幸福过...
如果那时我没有接受他,
现在我的世界根本不会有他的影子...
如果那时我没有和他断然分手,
我哪会从俩人行,变成了独自一人....
我不难过,只是觉得突然很感慨...
我不孤单,只是不太习惯没人的深夜...
我不会累,只是很想找个可靠的人依偎...
我不流泪,只是偶尔有小水滴沾在眼角上...
我不想他,只是有时那出他留给我的日记翻看...
我不爱他,只是,不知怎么彻底地放下这沉重的行囊...

看了自己的部落格,有二十篇了...我看了之后,真的为自己感到失望...为自己的不争气感到无助...为什么标题明明是写了start of something new,而我好像写的都是过去的往事...我怕我自己还爱他,因为那是一种无药可救的病...一旦患上了,就很难痊愈...我茫然,为什么就只有你一直在我心中徘徊?是命中注定吗?不,你的命中注定早已找到了...算了,再去想,只会扰乱我生活步伐...去睡觉吧...If only i could find my mr.sureright soon...

Monday, March 2, 2009

How about urs??

Early in the morning,i had already woke up...haha...Waking up early din mean tat i was hardworking, but rather, i was awakened from the nightmarish slumber...In my dream, i got a super lousy result in my spm...In spite of the bad result, my friends also laughed at me unceasingly...After then, i told this to my mom...she is much more speechless at the beginning...but a moment later...she said she will feel proud of me even i have no A in spm....



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yesterday, i sent that love curse's msg to you again...wat had made me amazed was tat u reply the same msg to me again...were you really love me? i am still doubting of something about you..."Were you just like me,but not love me?"...

i am so scare to fall in love v u...coz the moment i begins to love someone deeply,is the time i need to face disaster...but, in the condition tat someone can love me deeply, i can swear tat i will surely love him as he love me,too...


DREAMing WORLD

if, one day, i can speak out my love to you,
will you do the same thing to me?

if, one day, i say "i love you"
will you reply me v "i love you,too"

if, one day, i have the feeling of love v you...
will you have it aso?
if,one day, i find tat i really love you a lot...
could i ask you?
"Will you love me as i love you?"
and aso, could you answer this simple question
with jux one sentences,
"Yes, i do"